keeping moving..it works! haha

I have been feeling moments of real frailty the past few weeks.

Like just moments I will catch myself in the mirror and see really fragile movements and

look about myself. So it goes.. but I have also felt healthy attitudes lately too. Whatever...

The moods swings have been there...and if you have the stomach to read my journals and posts

you probably have seen me grapple with it - when I am deep in the middle of it...

Last night I felt pretty grim...wanted it all to be over.. would be a gift to me and my family if it were..

no longer a burden.. but I had work to go to this morning. Though I felt frail and vulnerable...I just went

to work..kept moving..kept interacting... and it worked!! It turned my perspective around.. not a hundred percent...

but it just boosted my mood and also my feeling of capability. At least I could do this job - life may present gifts to us..it also may present not an altogether happy story about our lives - but I could do this - and I am glad I could do it - and now I am home...who knows what the future holds - it's but one chapter in my book..I'll write another, different page some day... who knows where or when that will be.