good morning

Just took a walk to the beach. It's beautiful this morning, feeling a lot of gratitude and looking forward to things.

Just some notes....I was sitting in the living room and feeling an 'edge' about keeping busy this morning. What I mean by that is

that I had already done my planned tasks for the day.. albeit still the morning.. I had showered, tidied my room and went to Starbucks...and then I came back to the house and started watching the morning news. I wanted more but didn't really know what to do with myself.. it may sound simple..but this is what I thought.. It came to mind that we all have to organize our days in some way or another.. it doesn't all come at once.. it may come in fits and starts... or perhaps just gradually.. It's important that I realized this - because in the past I might have gotten stuck on a barrier like that... so I took myself for a walk, decided to do the 'big stairs' down to the beach... looked at the water a little bit..Decided I didn't want to commit to a walk along the shore - but I was glad I made it down there. It's a beautiful morning - and feel very lucky. I think I will take this kind of walk more if I can.

I wrote my Dr. a few days ago that I am starting to rationalize my expectation about life and I think this is coming to me more and more. I am challenging and adjusting for those things in my life that have proved to be a stumbling block or a barrier for me emotionally to move on in the day or in my life or work.

I was sitting in the living room yesterday and had a similar, 'along the lines of', this kind of idea. I saw opportunity for myself after realizing this. The thought was that I don't have to just sit still and be good - 'have all my bases covered so to speak'.

I saw more opportunity or at least that I wanted to create more opportunity for myself outside of that (while still keeping my bases covered) and I can deal with the angst that comes - we all have it - it's just whether you can work through or with it, in a sense, I am reckoning. 

We can see the start of a task with anxiety and woe - but as in anything we do, there will be a need to create a momentum with the task - and I aim to keep that in mind... to keep me inspired, rather than have it BLOCK me (and derail me) from going ahead and doing it/something.

Anyways, things are good. Have a good day guys!!