trying to think outside the box

i started to wind down, in the pattern that i have on evenings before a work day. I watch the international news programs : France24, then NHK Newsline, then DW news and then BBC World News America.

Frankly watchingt the news has started to depress me and get me down. Today was kind of important because I adjusted my perspective on some things - and gained relief, understanding and a sense of well being.

I was watching these shows and I thought to myself...if I don't want to watch this show.. I better start to think outside of this rutt that I seem to be in. Get creative essentially.

As the day wore on before I watched the shows I really so wanted to indulge in decadent stuff...likewise as I watched the shows I just wanted unbridled decadence as an answer to the bordome and sadness that I was feeling while watching these shows..

Well I thought about it and I get it that if I want to make more money than I better find ways to make more money OR better get used to that fact that I just can't do whatever the heck I want and I can feel good about myself that at least and excellent to me in fact is that I am being responsible and living within my means.

So I adjusted again. I took a step back from what I was doing, the thing that was making me sad, and I reconsidered what to do.

I feel good about my reason. Sure I would like more money - but if I had it, I think even then I would do a double think and put it towards the smarter places.