good wishes

I don't know why I feel so lost or at a loss for things to do with myself...like because I am not strong and because I am flawed there's not much out there for me to do. I am remembering something my brother in law told me about a depression he experienced in his early 20s. A friend visited him and helped him take an interest in life again. I guess because I lose myself mentally I get swayed as to what to do. Maybe I am now thinking, I will get a bicycle and go for bike rides around the village where I live.

Maybe I will follow through and go to the Civic Arts Plaza just to check it out. I am deserving, I have to believe that.