aware and changing

I feel great sadness tonight, and breathless but I wonder if I test myself to try

and see the bright side of things, test myself to try and challenge those feelings to

be bright and happy, maybe then I can rid those feelings away.

I think that's what I have got to do sometimes. Though darkness may come, challenge

it with light and stick my head above the water line.

I am aware that this time at my new apartment has made me start to feel things a little more intensely.

I am putting two and two together. I think with this fortifying awareness I can manage my feelings a bit better

and stay above or away from a blindess to that.