finding some peace and capability

something has changed within me. I have been coming to a place where I feel older, I feel slower and at times a bit depressed (at times seriously depressed)...but I also feel capable of setting myself in motion to direct myself to take care of the issue.

The idea of self love and self care(self healthcare) is coming to the forefront. I have been doing yoga lately. Something I have not had good results with in the past, however, this time around I am finding it really positive, nurturing and health giving. Maybe it's all a synchronicity of age and actions but I feel able to just throw myself into a situation with good result (even if I feel down initially) - self reliance enough to believe that I can do 'what I need to do' to get on in life. I think sometimes I can get caught up in aesthetics - how I would like to be perceived in life (and keep a tight grip on that) but I have to say the notion of self care is coming stronger to me and it gives me a sense of peace. As I have been doing yoga, I've noticed in the classes that I take that most of the people I am grouped with look as though they are my age or older. Retired.

It's giving me a sense of place in life - a sense of acceptance and understanding of the arc and nature of life now that I am coming down the other side of it.