weird day

I am trying not to drill down in a negative way but there are some things I just need to talk

about. Thankfully I am talking with my therapist at 12pm today.

I went to work this morning and really had to 'remind myself' to be disciplined about

work. I finally 'got into it' and did the work well. It was strange how that is.

I thought a bit about the idea of discipline with oneself and then also nurturing and listening

to what I want. Anyways, was glad I could get into the work. I did it well and was glad of it.

I really need this job.

I came home and kind of unwound a bit. I don't have the office thing now -

it's all on hiatus - so I only have the market to go and so I came home to no plan today.

I could play with Blue right away and not have to rush to eat lunch and then not have to worry about getting on to the work.

I took a shower and dressed. For the first time in a while, I really have a sense of my body. I'm outta shape

and kind of plump. I want to fix that!!

I thought about getting in touch with my friend the Abbess. I came home today kind of scrambled brains

a bit and aimless. I went ahead and cleaned Blue's litter box and washed up... I'll just get onto doing the dishes

and making the bed now too.

I found Blue sleeping in my spot on the bed today when I came home :) so sweet. He's done that a few times.

I guess we can have moments like the one I talked about when you suddenly feel unwound, aimless - and then

you need kind of get back into a routine of organizing, listening to music you like, I don't know.

I'm a pretty organized person. 

All in all, things are good. Sending good kharma out to you guys, stay safe!