Life is so textured.

Just want to share what I am thinking about. Things are good. It's taken a lot of bs to get through

but I am realizing in the final analysis that life is just very textured (euphemism for sure) and spikey

at times. I want to be all the things I'd like to be - but at times when I fall prey to my human nature

I get real dissappointed - but I think if I just "box" that as somewhat normal I'll put that into a reasonability

for myself and others.

Also found that it takes a heck of a whole lot of stoicism for me to get working responsibly. I can so

be a lazy daisy but I feel better actually when I put the effort into working hard and working responsibly.

So that's what I thought about at work today...and I'm surviving.

There are so many things going through my mind.

I may feel like an open wound and I may realize I work effectively with a small organized life... but perhaps

it's one of the reasons I gravitate towards being a home body and going to the monastery as well.

Just thoughts. 

Things are good. I won't go on. I hope you guys are having a good day!!

Sending peace, pats on the back for doing a good job today!Kudos!! and xx