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My first week

MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr

My first week back at work:


It was loud, especially yesterday.


Someone told me I've put on some pounds and look good. I thanked him, smiled and walked away telling myself "I'd rather be known for my kindness than my body type." No restricting. no purging. I didn't spiral. 


I saw some regulars and that felt really good. I'm exhausted though. Really really tired and my asthma has been flaring which sucks and makes me more tired. 


Depressing thoughts and thoughts of suicide get to me whenever things slow down and get almost quiet at work, and when life feels normal there. Feeling normal/safe feels really unsafe.  Kinda feel like I am waiting for a bomb to go off. Externally or internally idk, maybe both. I'm highly anxious this morning. Meds didn't help. Headed back to work tomorrow. Yikes! 

Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Sounds like a pretty emotionally charged first day, Marah. Great how you got through it as you did without spiraling, just some asthma discomfort. Hope you get some good rest before the "yikes" tomorrow.
Community LeaderLeo
Leo
I have the same issue about "normal-quiet = danger-waiting". Hugs.

It's hard to take coments about our bodies the way they're intended. My hubby remarked once on my curves and I set out to lose ten pounds. It's hard.

Supportive hugs
Thor2008
Thor2008
I’m like Leo and you. I like a chaotic workplace. Get too busy to think about self harm. Hoping you have a good next week.
Beryl367
Beryl367
First days (back, too) can be exciting, exhausting, and hard. Good for you for getting through it! Thoughts and prayers for a less taxing day tomorrow.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Today's my first day back, Marah. I hope I get through it as well as you got through yours. I was up until 2am doing class prep last night.
MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr
You got this Muji! How was it?
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