serenity92580
Status: "It's not about how hard you can hit, it's about how hard you can get hit- and keep moving forward." -Slyvester Stallone, Rocky Balboa
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I think I feel a sense of inherent shame about smoking weed and that’s one of the reasons it affects me so bad. The objective fact is- I’m addicted to smoking weed. When I let go of all of my...
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It continues to surprise me how much easier life is than I’ve made it out to be for my time on this earth. I’m not saying it’s easy- it can be very hard. But easier than I’ve made it out to...
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I don't think there is ever going to be a time where taking care of myself is super easy and natural. Not now anyway. It seems as if I'm waiting for some divine intervention when in reality the...
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I forgive myself for sleeping 8 hours instead of getting up 2 hours ago and going straight to work.I forgive myself for taking the day to relax yesterday instead of working all day.I forgive myself...
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I feel this extreme sense of guilt when I take care of myself. I slept 8 hours last night and I woke up feeling really guilty. Like there's so many better things to do. Like I don't deserve to...
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I'm mad as fucking hell and I refuse to hold it in so I have to vent. My brother is the most inconsiderate prick I've ever met. He came all the way from wurtsboro to sell me a bag of weed- just so...
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I think sometimes about what my profile would be on these dating sites if I didn't actually want a date- meaning if I could just be brutally honest- sound off- tweak- to let people honestly know...
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I want to spend all day and night journaling. I have so much shit to get out of me. I feel so excited when I think of being sober. It will be SO great to have my appetite be normal and to be...
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I don't want to face today. I don't want to face my life. I'm scared I won't be able to stop smoking. Everytime I say I want to quit I feel this tremendous urge to smoke. My acid reflux is really...
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I spent all morning yesterday writing this email to my ex best friend- from now on we'll call her X. Anyway- so I spent the whole fucking morning writing this email to this fucking stupid bitch. I...
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I woke up pissed the fuck off. Its 2 AM and I'm sober. That's my christmas gift to me. Sobriety. I've needed to journal for a few days now but I've resisted it for some reason. I think its...
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Every year christmas comes around and I beat the fucking shit out of myself. For many years I've sent cards and gifts to many who don't send them to me. I don't really care that they don't send...
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I woke up angry and I don't know why. I know that my room is trashed, laundry not done. That never makes me feel good. In fact it makes me feel suffocated and depleted. I woke up at 7 so I got a...
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I feel like there is a part of me hell bent on self destruction. This part is strong and consumes me at times and I am not sure why and I’m not sure what the fuck I can do to stop it. I went to an...
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I don't want to go to work today and I don't know why. Its something about this place that sucks me in and I don't fully get it. I love my career- why do I not want to go to work? Its bc I've...
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