serenity92580
Status: "It's not about how hard you can hit, it's about how hard you can get hit- and keep moving forward." -Slyvester Stallone, Rocky Balboa
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I absolutely despise myself right now. The negative self talk sounds something like this:You’re a complete piece of fucking shit. You haven’t prepped for court which is 4 hours away, and you...
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I have a huge day ahead of me today. I have a trial and people are coming in to sign divorce papers. I’m filled with angst and I know I have to get it out before I face today.I don’t even know...
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I can't seem to shake this feeling that I'm an unbelievable failure at life. Its a huge deterrant for me. It stops me from doing things that would actually help me. Here's a list of all the people...
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3.25.12 8:35 PM Why am I so scared to stop smoking weed? I’ve been sober before and it was always great – ALWAYS. There’s no exception to that rule. I started smoking weed at 15 and I think I...
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11:46 AM 3.23.12I always feel not good enough when I’m around people who speak of their success. Why is that? My take is- it’s b/c my father compared me to everyone else my entire life. Any time...
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Journal about "NBD":Whenever I'm around people who say things like "no big deal" in regards to things I'm feeling I feel like a piece of shit. It feels like they're saying- you're not important. ...
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So the following is all of my journaling about this one dude named Jimmy:I deaded a dude I was talking to tonight. By other's standards I might have overreacted. But to me I did the right...
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I don’t know what to do. I spend SO MUCH energy on avoiding my mom. I would give anything if she would just take care of herself. I bite my tongue so much that I’m surprised I still have a...
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I'm depressed as hell. I haven't journaled in a while so maybe its bc I have a lot of pent up shit inside. I want to be as honest as possible. I've realized that honesty with how I feel is...
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I’ve got a big day ahead of me and before I start I wanted to clear my head of all this bullshit. He texted me last night. At about 8 he texted “how r u doing? I saw you at your job- I was going...
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I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach. Last night I learned that my alcoholic ex was most likely cheating on me. So needless to say- we won’t be speaking anymore- ever. I even deleted him on...
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My ex came by my office last night. Steve- my first. The one who I wrote "End of an Era" journal entries for. Part of me didn't feel the need to post this. But then I went back and read the...
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I just had what I like to call an “OCD fit.” I’ve developed a strong case of OCD living here at home. I think its b/c of 2 reasons- one is that there is a very small amount of space and I start...
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I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. I've hurt a lot of people with my anger and confusion of how it is one should act in this world. But I never used anyone that I proclaimed to love. C...
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I can't shake this overwhelming feeling that I'm gonna be lonely forever. That everyone sees me as negative and hard to be around. That I'm never going to meet a man that appreciates me. That I'm...
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