day 1 part 2

I don't want to face today. I don't want to face my life. I'm scared I won't be able to stop smoking. Everytime I say I want to quit I feel this tremendous urge to smoke. My acid reflux is really acting up right now. I already took a pill. I don't know what else to do. People are depending on me to be at work today. I'm scared. I'm scared I'm going to let them all down. I feel absolutely horrible. God get me through this day.