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I'm doing okay...I think the increase in the Celexa was a good thing.  My moods seem to be a little bit more stable.  I'm still sick though and my head has been aching along with this sore...

Soooooo sick of being sick.  My throat is hurting so much.  I took a flashlight last night and looked in my mouth cause my tongue has started hurting too and noticed that in the back there are...

Still in pain.  I think I'm going to make another doctors appointment...this is just hanging on too long and not improving any.  Plus starting to get pain under my right arm as well....I think it...

I'm in so much pain right now.  Swallowing is sooooo painful...and it's keeping me awake.  I just gave in and took some of my meds that help me sleep.  I've been relying on them too much lately...

I head from my Hematologist today....FINALLY.  First things first, it scares me when the doctor calls me himself and not have his receptionist make the call...that just threw me off.  Second...he...

I don't really feel anything today.  I don't know...it's been good overall.  I just came back from my parents house today.  Had a shower and basically was out the door for Alpha.  My throat is...

I am going to my parents for sure now.  Probably in about 1-2 hours.  I managed to have some food today.  I forgot to mention earlier that I did go to the clinic and got some prescription mouth...

i think i'm just getting frustrated with not being able to swallow much...therefore not eating....which is now playing on my moods...hopefully will start feeling better soon.slept in today and am...

i'm really bored today...and blahi'm thinking of going to the clinic tonight to get my throat looked at.  I'm sure it's just something viral but I swear it feels like i'm gonna swallow my left...

ugghhhh....my throat is really really bothering me but at least my head isn't aching so far today.  Mood wise I feel okay. When I woke up I realized I had a message on my phone so I checked my...

that bad feeling is back...that one where something bad is going to happen....keep seeing the words break, gonna break....going through my head...how do i make it stophad good lunch with sister and...

Morning... Woke up and my throat is more sore then it has been the last few days...it's very hard to swallow today but *shrugs* not much I can do about it.  I am going out with my family for my...

I'm doing good right now.  For how long I don't know...*shrugs*.  I'm thinking of calling my psychiatrist and seeing if an increase in meds might be of benefit.  I'm on the lowest dose right...

what the f*ck is going on with me.  I can't handle all this up and down.  I'd rather be either happy...or even just depressed without all the up and down.  So sick of this.  I jut want it all to...

ok so i got pretty screwed up last night...at least i felt good for a bit...i guess i did give into the cutting though a bit....don't remember much...but my hand is bandaged today...i'll take a look...