I'm in so much pain right now. Swallowing is sooooo painful...and it's keeping me awake. I just gave in and took some of my meds that help me sleep. I've been relying on them too much lately and I don't like that but I have an appointment tomorrow with my counsellor and I need to get some sleep. I just came online to kill some time before the meds kick in and my brain settles down. Been trying to sleep for over an hour with no luck. I hate the state I'm in physically and mentally. Mentally I don't feel extremely bad but the urges that I have to do stuff are there. The one and only good thing about this sore throat is that it keeps me from acting on the urge. Because of these urges and thoughts I know mentally I'm not well. Well, I don't think I'm making sense so I shall probably end this for now. Just bored and in pain and don't know what to do with myself for now.
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Just got online before I hit the couch to sleep myself so I could check up and make sure I got everything done... I\'m praying that you get some sleep and for a fast healing with your throat. I\'m worried that it might be something else, I hope it gets better soon. I know what you mean about the urges, just thinking about being in a car with my mother and sister is making want to cut! so in a few hrs, when we acctually leave, it should be intresting! Plus I\'m PMSing so my emotions are very sensative. anyway, enough about me... Know that I love you and am praying for you. HUGS!!!!