ugghhhh....my throat is really really bothering me but at least my head isn't aching so far today.  Mood wise I feel okay. When I woke up I realized I had a message on my phone so I checked my messages and it was my psychiatrist.  She said she is going to call again later and we'll talk about the best thing to do regarding meds.  I would prefer to do things naturally but the meds is the cheapest option since I have to be on them anyway.  My insurance makes it so I pay a set amount no matter what my dose is or how many i get.  Doing anything else other then the presecription is going to cost me more money that I don't have.  It sucks but that's how it is.  I did cut again last night on my leg this time.  I have to stop before I get back into the habit of using that when things are bad but it's just so much easier.  It's less dangerous then some things that I get urges to do.  Well I should go see if i can eat something or at least get something healthy to drink.  But it hurts so bad to swallow so I'm not looking forward to it.  I need to go to the store later to pick up something for my throat but it is sooooo rainy today.