ok so i got pretty screwed up last night...at least i felt good for a bit...i guess i did give into the cutting though a bit....don't remember much...but my hand is bandaged today...i'll take a look at it later to see the damage...at least for now the urges are gone.Accidently broke one of my roommates glasses while trying to swat at a housefly.  I'm becoming convinced that houseflies have an alterior motive...they are secretly watching us hoping we cause destruction and chaos.  Yup...those little secret service bugs...lol.  Wonder who their head hauncho is.  Maybe there's really no such thing as houseflies.  Maybe they're all tiny little radio cameras filming our every move, reporting them back to headquarters...wherever that may be.  Also I did finish off one of my roommates bottles of alcohol...triple sec so i will be spending the money i earn tonight at focus group to replace her bottle.  It will cost me more then I make...but oh well.   Oh yeah...i sold something online for my dad and my parents are giving me half so basically i end up having $5 left after i replace the goods.  Might have to use that to buy a new glass for my roommate though if you can buy them singly.  Felt like i was having quite the party...lol....by myself.6:30am in the morning i was sick though.  I think it was probably from the pepporoni I ate more then the alcohol.  But it could've been a mix of both....it sucked.  Mental note...next time i eat pepperoni and drink...and have even the remotest possibility of being sick....eat startburst or skittles...the rainbow makes everything much more pleasant.  That was a discovery made the hard way a few years ago...lol.   Just trust me when I say starburst and skittles are a good thing when there's a chance you'll be sick for any reason...flu bug, drunk, etc.well...enough babbling...i should get outta bed and get a glass of water and rehydrate myself from last nights adventures...haha.  I've got focus group tonight and it has the potential to be triggering so I need to be as prepared as possible.