Ellocin

Went out for a bit tonight...saw the mommy cat but not the baby.  I think she's hiding somewhere.  Spent a lot of money at the Bulk Barn...well not a lot but way more then I was expecting to...

Well, this might be a little pathetic as I know those kitties weren't mine and I'm sure they're still living but I came across this online and felt like it still fit.  At least somewhat.  God...

Kitties still aren't around.Still doing laundry.Took Celexa a little later today and now starting to get sleepy...pretty sure it's the Celexa.  Might go geocaching tonight for a bit.  Not sure...

Doing okay I guess.  Just kind of feeling blah.I poured a mixed drink last night but after just a couple sips decided it was a gross mix and didn't drink it.  I dunno if that's good or bad.  I...

I guess I'm alright.  Not really sure honestly.  I did go outside again and saw the kitties.  Only stayed out with them for a minute though because I had water boiling inside.  Went back out...

Sleep musta helped a little.  Either that or the combo of meds and alcohol...lol.  Anyhow...a little sad and worried...I went out to see if the kitties had been around and the food I left last...

I couldn't sleep and was feeling crappy so I did go outside.  I went to check on the cats but they aren't there and the food I left when my roommate was in the shower is still there.  I'm...

Mom got to meet the kitties today.  We won their trust enough to put them in a cage but when I was on the phone trying to find a place to take them they escaped.  Apparently they're not only cute...

I keep calling places to see if they have room for the cats if I do catch them and no one seems to.  I'm so frustrated.  I'm feeling miserable physically, mentally, and now with these kitties and I...

I guess I'm okay right now.  I didn't end up cutting even though I still feel a little like it...but not enough to actually do it.  I took a Loxapine and it did make me tired enough to sleep before...

I ended up going out with mom for the evening.  We went for supper and then shopping at Value Village.  It was okay but I started getting really tired and the chest pain started again a bit.  Not...

My appointment went well.  I think we pretty much covered everything that needed to be covered today.  She agreed with my idea of trying the Ativan for a bit and to give my body a break from the...

I was just sitting in the living room watching tv and saw movement out on the patio.  I said to myself, that sure looks like a cat.  Sure enough it was.  I went over to the patio door and there...

I'm okay.  I did manage to sleep a bit and even woke up in time to take my antibiotic.  Still didn't sleep as well as I'd like but not to bad overall.  I have my appointment with my psychiatrist...

Getting annoyed.  My body is aching enough right now to keep me awake.  I don't really want to take anything but I think I am going to have to.  This is just getting to be too much for me...