Ellocin

Still feeling like a pile of poo now.  Had a nap but it didn't make me feel any better. I'm gonna have a shower or a bath and see if that helps.  I need one anyway...don't feel like it though.  My...

Today I woke up feeling horrible.  I can't make the thoughts stop.  It's really pissing me off.  I'm soooo frustrated because I don't want these thoughts...I don't want to feel like I'd be better...

I'm happy to say that overall things are going better.  My energy level is coming back fairly quick.  My interest in things is coming back, and my appetite is coming back...although I'd kinda like...

Why do things change so much in one day.  I'm not doing so well today.  Here's how my day is going...it doesn't sound bad at all...so why am I feeing so bad?! Woke up around 10:30am, my roommates...

Oddly enough, but thankfully I had an overall good day.  Started off a little rocky but I ended up having energy, getting my shower, and even going for a short (less then 5 min total) walk to pick...

Is a hug too much to ask?  *sigh*  for me it is...i'm not enjoying real one's anymore

Why can't I snap myself out of it? I'm so tired of feeling like this and it is making it so hard to do things.  I tried to go spend a night at my parents...something I do frequently when things are...

Back home now. I'm exhausted. I went to my appointment with my psychiatrist and she did talk me into starting my meds again. No surprise there given the way my moods have been. Hung out with a girl I...

still feel le crappy.  woke up 6:30am after about 5 hours of broken sleep.  see my psychiatrist today...will see how that goes.  at least i can't use sleeping in as an excuse for missing...

still not feeling over great, moods still suck, energy sucks, everything pretty much sucks.  I did vent a bit to my ex....told him in an email as pleasantly as possible how I felt.  Only told him...

i'm screwing everything up...what the fucken point of trying anymorei fucking give up...i don't care any more 

i've been laying here awake doing a lot of thinking and crying.  I think i know why my moods have been so depressed lately and I really don't want to admit the reasons why.   A few weeks ago my...

feeling so lost right now and wanting to do bad stuff.... why can't i make this feelng goaway and these thoughts.  why.  if it wasn't the fact hat my family having a bday party for my nephews 16...

good news...throat is not as sorebad news...my moods are hitting a new low...well for how things have been lately anyway...i don't want to sound like i'm complaining though, i know there are others...

not sure why but i feel like crap again mood wise.  I can't seem to make the bad thoughts stop...feel like the world would be a better place without me.