haemae624
Status: so many people are inactive on ds): i miss my old buds!
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i got a temporary job and started today! which is a good thing, but also, just... not. i'm working at a nursery so i'm in the sun all day harvesting pumpkins which as i learned today, is exhausting....
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purging for me has never really been about reducing stress. it's always been more about loosing weight, but with everything that is going on... doing years of growing up in a week it's all i can do...
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so, it's been a while... again.i've been getting very weak recently and i wouldn't doubt it has a lot to do with the purging. it's not something that i want to stop i just wish it didn't make me so...
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hey, y'all! it has been a while since i've been on here. i'll be getting to everybody's messages right away!to say a lot has changed would be an understatement. for the most part i have been doing...
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I don't have a good reason for not going to class today. I just can't do it. I don't know why... part of me is just saying "suck it up. nothing is wrong, just get ready, get in your fucking car and...
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my eating problems, trich, anxiety, depression... it's all getting out of control. i have skipped 3 of my last acting classes because of it all. i just wake up in the morning and cannot bare being in...
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There are two kinds of dreams: the ones you have when you are awake, and the other are induced while asleep. Waking dreams are usually more pleasant. We dream about the future; where we want to go,...
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I don't know why it's so damn hard for me... how hard is it to just not eat? Just don't put food in my mouth... I've done it before. I know it's always hardest when your first starting out but...
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It looks like I am going to be coming on here a lot more... This is the only place I have to put these thoughts down. I can't talk about my problems with food anywhere else. People worry, people ask...
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1) I feel like I am waiting for my life to start, but I'm not doing anything. I'm just standing in front of the wave, waiting for it to hit me. I'm not running towards it. Maybe I should be, but I...
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I feel absolutely awful. I'd like to blame it on that thing that happens to ladies once a month, but I know it's more than that.My oldest sister found out about me having trich while I was staying...
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Tomorrow (well, later today) I am flying to Idaho to stay with my sister for 3 weeks. It's going to be the same thing as before; her husband is away for work so I'll be watching her kids while she...
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My body image issues seem to be getting worse and worse. I've been gaining weight, which, you know, sucks. It's summer. I want to swim with my friends. I want to be able to go outside and feel...
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I realized that I haven't updated my goals in a while, and I also realized that I haven't reached any of them. Actually, I'm back at the beginning. 144 pounds and not a day pull free for months.This...
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A few months ago I had my first... I guess you could call it "sexual experience" with a guy. It was absolutely awful. He was too aggressive and rough. I felt nothing but uneasiness and discomfort...
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