Skipping
I don't have a good reason for not going to class today. I just can't do it. I don't know why... part of me is just saying "suck it up. nothing is wrong, just get ready, get in your fucking car and sit in a classroom for 2 hours."
and it's not that I don't like the class, I love all my classes. I just don't have any energy or will to even get out of bed. I can't be around people right now. Talk to them, have them looking at me and feel like they can see right through me. I cannot handle that right now.
I feel like I am going to collapse or disappear. I feel unstable. I don't know how to fix this. I want to, I want to feel normal but I don't know how.
With every breath I feel like I am being crushed and I don't know what to do.
and it's not that I don't like the class, I love all my classes. I just don't have any energy or will to even get out of bed. I can't be around people right now. Talk to them, have them looking at me and feel like they can see right through me. I cannot handle that right now.
I feel like I am going to collapse or disappear. I feel unstable. I don't know how to fix this. I want to, I want to feel normal but I don't know how.
With every breath I feel like I am being crushed and I don't know what to do.
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There\'s a concept called \"Self-efficacy\" and you can lose that when you\'ve perhaps been controlled by others somewhere in your life. Maybe you are in tune with some kind of futility in this manner.