Fuck. Carlos just found out that I weigh below a hundred pounds. FUCK FUCK FUCK. He said, so you don't give a shit anymore and clearly don't love me. I told him that it stayed the same from last week which is a first in months that I haven't continued to lose. So that's progress.
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UH, Carlos needs to read up on ed and realize that ed and him are not in a competition. I love my husband more than anybody else but ed has the power over my behavior. I\'m trying to change that but it\'s so damn hard and Dwayne knows that I hate ed.
I know that it sucks, in his eyes, to not see the weight gain from one week to the next but for us that truly is progress. I am glad that you didn\'t lose any weight!
im going to be the devils advocate here. in your last journal you said you ate tons sat. and sun to make up for friday. how much are you really eating? what type of food, what calories does your meal plan want you to eat? i am curious, but is good you didnt lose, but you are at a dangerous weight. carlos is so worried about you and you know how frustrations and worry can come out, not always in the best way. he is just so worried and as much as he supports you, he really doesnt ed, i dont either and im in it. hope it goes better and your not pissed at me.