breakdown again.
Clearly today just is not my day. My dad wanted to talk to me about finances etc since I was upset from this morning. I finally called him back tonight because my mom send me an email saying that I had to.
I told him i quit the job and am going to Petsmart. Of course just like Carlos, he said well you need to start thinking about the future, you're not going to work at petsmart for the next few years. He said we should get togehter to go over my finances and see what I can do to cut things etc. I told him I have cut everything I can and am very cheap when it comes to buying things or goign places.
THen back to the future jobs and now. He said what I am doing now is okay for the time being but I need to look into what else I can do. Meaning a 40hr work schedule. I explained AGAIN that with crew and appoitnments I can not do that at the moment, and I will not be able to until the Crew Season is over in May. He kept going at it that I need to start thinking of what I am giong to do come then.
Tell me if I am wrong here, but have I not been doing that the past week or so!? I told him that I got a new job, didn't like it, secured another job, then quit and am starting the new job all in the past week by myself. I also said that I can not start focusing on what I am going to do next May because I am going to start obsessing about it like I have been. He started coming up with things in the health field etc that I can do and then I broke it to him. Told him that I dont think that is my path and just laid it all out there on the line. He was okahy with it and said that i then need to come up with things that i want to do. AHHHHHHHHHHH. I KNOW THIS ALREADY. I am not a fucking idiot.
I basically cried the entire time on the phone with him. i couldn't help it. I kept quiet and reserved at first because I wanted to contain myself and stay strong- but then I couldn't anymore. Nothing that he said helped. I don't think anything can help. I don't know what anyone can do unless someone is going to give me money.
I told you this life isnt worth it. Like i have said before...fuck it.
and buying all this food is not helping the $$ at all either.
I told him i quit the job and am going to Petsmart. Of course just like Carlos, he said well you need to start thinking about the future, you're not going to work at petsmart for the next few years. He said we should get togehter to go over my finances and see what I can do to cut things etc. I told him I have cut everything I can and am very cheap when it comes to buying things or goign places.
THen back to the future jobs and now. He said what I am doing now is okay for the time being but I need to look into what else I can do. Meaning a 40hr work schedule. I explained AGAIN that with crew and appoitnments I can not do that at the moment, and I will not be able to until the Crew Season is over in May. He kept going at it that I need to start thinking of what I am giong to do come then.
Tell me if I am wrong here, but have I not been doing that the past week or so!? I told him that I got a new job, didn't like it, secured another job, then quit and am starting the new job all in the past week by myself. I also said that I can not start focusing on what I am going to do next May because I am going to start obsessing about it like I have been. He started coming up with things in the health field etc that I can do and then I broke it to him. Told him that I dont think that is my path and just laid it all out there on the line. He was okahy with it and said that i then need to come up with things that i want to do. AHHHHHHHHHHH. I KNOW THIS ALREADY. I am not a fucking idiot.
I basically cried the entire time on the phone with him. i couldn't help it. I kept quiet and reserved at first because I wanted to contain myself and stay strong- but then I couldn't anymore. Nothing that he said helped. I don't think anything can help. I don't know what anyone can do unless someone is going to give me money.
I told you this life isnt worth it. Like i have said before...fuck it.
and buying all this food is not helping the $$ at all either.
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Why didn\'t you come straight out with what you want to do and have in mind, your ferret business. Don\'t be afraid or ashamed. You are an adult once again and unless your parents pay your bills they need to stay out of your finances.
you do have a plan for your life, a ferret business and i think it is great, wanting to help animals, it takes a very specail person and you are one.there seems to always bee a lot of finance talk with your father, any particular reason why, or how it started?