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Yesterday:Is it possible for someone to have an eating disorder, drop to 70lbs, not get professional help, not need medical attention and then have 3 good friends that were worried and concerned...

Flower passed away today. Yes Karin youre probably be happy bc its one less 'rodent' you have to hear abOut. I will write more later. Today has been very hard- multiple crying episodes. ThisMorning...

The one thing that I cannot get out of my mind at the moment is Lindsay, one of my friends. She has always called me her BFF, but she is not my BFF. I always go along with what she says just to make...

Today has been obsurdly difficult...I woke up feeling exhausted. From 4am on I could not sleep... My stomach felt empty so I weighed myself...99.0...went down 1lb. Yay! I felt an overwhelming shot of...

Woke up early this morning to cox for SAW at CRC. Extremely exhausted. My eyes hurt. I can never seem to get enough sleep these days. After SAW a lot of the rowers came up to me to thank me for...

Woke up and laid in bed for quite some time. My eyes burned because I was tired. I wanted to go back to sleep. I did not though. The thought of whether I should weigh myself or not went through my...

To weigh myself…or not? Those were the words that I awoke to in my mind. Carlos called me and that was all that came to my mind. He said he was on 355 coming home. I tried to calculate how much...

“In the past the seasons, the moon phases, the ebb and flow of the tides, and nature's life-death-rebirth cycle were looked to for the answers to the mysteries of life. But as time has passed,...

Todays therapy session was REALLY good. I got so much accomplished. I basically read my journal entry from wednesday to Joanna and also more information/thoughts associated with my last entry that I...

Right now i am truly upset because it hurts to hear the truth. Even though I'm not happy with someones personal achievements if it means they are better than me, I still pretend to be happy for...

I HATE myself. I HATE my life. I FUCKING WANT TO QUIT LIFE. I am getting pretty fucking close to it.

Sleepy when I awakened this morning. Beautiful day filled with many plans. Received a lovely card from Frankie- I think we might be the same person. Someday I will meet her. I have really failed at...

After writing all that I did this morning regarding yesterday, I came to the conclusion that today is a new day and that I CAN make it through til Wednesday. I have planned out everyday as to how I...

Part I:I know it's only Friday afternoon, but I am already worrying about many things. I am so shaky and feel sick to my stomach. It seems like nerves, but nerves of what? I am very upset...

Scared. Terrified. Nervous.I know this is early, but I have been freaking out regarding what I am going to do when Joanna takes her week long vacation in July. I am also going on a cruise in July. I...