Scared.

Scared. Terrified. Nervous.
I know this is early, but I have been freaking out regarding what I am going to do when Joanna takes her week long vacation in July. I am also going on a cruise in July. I could not get this off my mind so I asked her. I needed to know. I could not wait. She just responded saying that she actually does not know exactly when but it is usually around the 4th of July. FUCK. That means it might be the week before I go on my cruise.
Then what?! That will be TWO FUCKING WEEKS without her. I know that I am NOT ready for that. I am really hoping she changes that and is gone the week I am gone.