Waiting

Each day gets closer to my move out date.  There have been lots of tearful moments and I keep waiting for the anxiety attack to hit me but so far it has not. It will probably hit me after I am alone in the apartment.  At least I am taking all the animals with me so I will not be totally alone.  Still waiting for the monitor to be available for my next heart test...damn good thing they don't think it will just quit cause I have already been waiting a month.  ...maybe if I actually pass out they will move me up the priority list lol.  I am doing ok cutting back the caffeine..I am down to three cups a day now.  The smoking is another matter but I'm pretty sure once I am moved out it will get easier.