JaniceS

hi to all my dear friendsi cannot believe i havent written for so long.  for one, there was so much talk and excitement about the get together holiday some of you were planning, that i almost felt...

hi to all my dear friends. i havent written in for a long while. i check in often, but havent been too active.  i went into a deep dark depression. something SO hard to get out of.  ive battled,...

over a month since ive written. dont know why. think brain overload.i am grieving so deep for my jessy. i cant believe she was 12 when she died, and this november she would have been 13. i keep...

hi to all my dear friends i just wanted to say you are all in my thoughts all the time. i havent been "active" lately on here. i am so deeply depressed. i am sad. after just over a year, the reality...

i dont know how to live this new normal. we talk so much, we read each others journals, i hear what we all say. but i DONT KNOW HOW TO DO IT ! depressed? i dont know. i dont think so. am on an...

Pappa passed away

hi to my dear friends pappa is still in ICU. i am tired i am very very tired. i havent been to see him for a few days, i just get choked up and sick going back into a hospital. i just cant do it. at...

thank you all my dear friends, for your great support.  pappa is not doing well, he has now developed pneumonia.  i just cant believe how doctors can be - "oh its no big deal really, we just drill...

my father-in-law is not in a good way. he is currently in ICU.  he is 89 years old, its not that death isnt expected when a person is so old. but it doesnt make it less sad or traumatic.he fell...

jarod is crying so much. he is weepy all the time, he reacts way overly sensitive if anyone, even a teacher, reprimands him. he can be wild, crazy, aggressive, plays rough. but if anyone looks at him...

hi all my dearest friends i have 2 angel dates for jessy, as she passed away on the 5th day of the jewish passover (an 8 day festival which falls around april but at a different time each year), and...

something to share about jessy      ....  she absolutely rejoiced in festivity. she wasn't aware of her disabilities, and had no awareness of anyone who looked at her funny, or what they thought...

oh my god, can it actually be a year already!  oh my god, i am so scared. i am vomiting again, and i am sick sick sick with grieving and longing.i cant believe its actually a year since jessy...

everythings so sore. i dreamed i was chasing after my dad's car screaming "daddy! daddy!" the pain was unbearable.so there he is on another continent now, and the stepmonster doesnt even CALL me for...

hello to my dear friendsi just wanted to share with you that im feeling a little better. i had a chat with my rabbi, i cried and cried and told him of the horrid things that came back to me about my...