JaniceS

i feel scared. im just scared. i want to hold jessy. where is she really?i just feel scared

hello my dear friendsas we enter into february, i am feeling frantic, and shaky, as april draws nearer. 24 April will be ONE YEAR since jessy's passing. i cannot cannot cannot believe it. i think...

hi to all my dearest sistersi dont know what i would do if it werent for you, and it touches me so very deeply that you are there, and that you CARE so much, and that you are all so warm and loving...

im sad, im so sad.i want to write to you, my friends.im sad about so much that is going on im my life.im sad because i want to get off my chest the "what if's"i have so much bottled upi was so upset...

thank you all for being so kind and gentle with me, you are really amazing. today the kids started the new school year.  tali is 5 and is in the final year of kindergarten, which is age appropriate...

little things happen a lot. today i was at a shopping mall, and was trying to pay for the parking card. the kids were fighting over who was going to get the coins out of the machine. and the 3 of...

hello to my dearest, dearest friends i am having such a dilemma, and i just dont know who to turn to.  the pain, of course the pain. its been just over 8 months now since jessy died. i havent cried...

what is wrong with me?!i was doing so well. i know we go through phases, but mine seem a bit dramatic and it scares me to death.when i feel good, i feel real good and think i can help so many people,...

our angels who have passed, i think ive figured why we get so frustrated at things people say....  its because OTHER PEOPLE see things as earthly OR heavenly. there is a distinct line. we are on...

dearest friendsi see my last entry was December 09, more than 4 months ago.  I'm not sure why exactly i didnt write in for so long.  i think i've been trying to find a way to live life, trying to...

my friends, i need help.  i'm sorry. at times i am strong, and i can give such insightful and helpful support.  but right now i need help... . . .  i am anxiety stricken.  i cant believe jessy...

hi to all my dear friendsi cannot believe i havent written for so long.  for one, there was so much talk and excitement about the get together holiday some of you were planning, that i almost felt...

hi to all my dear friends. i havent written in for a long while. i check in often, but havent been too active.  i went into a deep dark depression. something SO hard to get out of.  ive battled,...

over a month since ive written. dont know why. think brain overload.i am grieving so deep for my jessy. i cant believe she was 12 when she died, and this november she would have been 13. i keep...

hi to all my dear friends i just wanted to say you are all in my thoughts all the time. i havent been "active" lately on here. i am so deeply depressed. i am sad. after just over a year, the reality...