gimmestrength2008

well, here i am i in my third floor apt and guess what? ya you are rite its storming AGAIN. i realy cant watch anything to do with this. im so terrified of storms now. never was before. i feel like...

well here i am. its been sence march sence i got on here. things are still the same . still fight ing w. son as ussually. he left for the night and its probly for the best. i get so mad and cannot...

oh my god my stomack  is getting so big. blue jeans wanted to cut me in half. im sick again. i think its all my smoking. got an electronic cig, tastes funny. have bad chest congestion. having...

well, here it is my 50th bday and here i sit. my party was cancelled of cousres. it snowed  AGAIN. so no party no presents, no cake, nothin. figures, i should have known. my oldest son was going to...

well, the heavy snow didnt get as bad as they thought. thank god. my poor car is in the shade. havnt been out in a while. son off school all week so far. he seft to go to nvideo store and isnt back...

well, this is my last entry for tonight. have to eat and watch movies. going to pick out my cake tommorrow. ohhhh the snow storm is going to be bad. oh well, wil go out 2moro and get enough to last...

well, im back for a while. son went out so i took my meds so i can type. have had a pretty good week. left house 4 times this week. started taking a creative wrinting class. i love it.l trying to get...

well, i just took my xanex only 2 and a half. also took the kava kava and pashion flower. i think the herbs are helping. i accually will maybe still have xanex till end of month  for a change. yay....

well, im back on finnally. son is at colledge. couldnt be soon enough. its been a long time sence on here. dont know how much time ill have on here. jammin to some guns and roses right now. i can...

well, i have to get off here. going to watch walle again. love that little guy. will probly not be on here much till the 15th when son goes bafck to school. might try later. have to take meds and eat...

well, its about time this crapp ass yr was over. there was so much sickness and death this yr. moore than ever. i am realy going to try to get my shit together this yr. i have to . im sooo fat....

well, had to take my xanex couldnt type anymoore too schackey. waiting for them to kick in so i can write better. got the gatoraid, have to rehydaite. so dehydrated from being so sick. cant seem to...

well, i got my sick ass up at 6 a.m. met b.f. in lot and he got my window fixed. it was only 60.00 im soo  glad maybe ill still get some money for xmas. if not im so screwed. he is so good to me. i...

i found this new group i never saw fefore. its called a safe place to fall.  awsome name. its for everyone whohas ever been abused  anyway, not just pyhsical, but mental and emational abuse...

well, its been about 2 weeks now. still very sick. dic called me in ammoxicilin, its so very strong and makes me very sick. supposed to go \get car fixed at 8.30 a.m. tomorow and i dnt know if i can...