gimmestrength2008

well, i can finnaly put something positive in my goal update. i left the house 5 or 6 thimes this week. still not going out in public, just family. but its a start. im very happy about this....

im in a lot of pain lately. i have gained so much, i gained weight in my liver. i now have a fatty liver. oh the pain. i did lose 11 pounds, that was with diaretics and laxitives, but its a start. im...

THIS JUST IN!!!! I LEFT THE HOUSE TODAY  allert the media

well, the seasons are changeing finnally. this is the first day i didnt have to use ac. im so fat now that im hot all the time, not just the flashes. im going to my cousins house tommorow night for a...

i realy feel pretty good today. i went to see the counseler today, going to be a once a week deal. now i aat home, trying to figure out wat to watch on tv. still trying to clean my pig stye, going to...

i cahnged my goal to 0 because i think im going bacwords, i know i am. i am at an all time low in self asteem. i notice that i have a realy hard time making eye contact, had this prob most of my...

it realy sucks to be me today. i cant shake this feeling that something realy bad is going to happen. dont know what or wene but i know its going to happen. i can feel it. dont like feeling like...

ya know, for having a pretty big family, i feel very alone. went to the counseler yesterday. it was the first time. i had no idea what to say or do. im going back next monday. once a week i think. i...

well, its friday night again i see., i have 3 people comeing over tonight, one is my sister and one is boyfriend, im so vnervoius aboput it. house is a mess and i dont even care. hope boyfreind is in...

well, im back again. wow two times in one day, thats a record for me. just joined a new group, its called healing together. i love the name. i had no idea there were so many that i didnt even know...

well, another week is apon me. i hate weekdays. i realy hate my life right now. im out of gas in the car, have very few cigs, used my last foodstamps today, dont know how much moore i can take. i...

well, another week is apon me. i hate weekdays. i realy hate my life right now. im out of gas in the car, have very few cigs, used my last foodstamps today, dont know how much moore i can take. i...

well, another week is apon me. i hate weekdays. i realy hate my life right now. im out of gas in the car, have very few cigs, used my last foodstamps today, dont know how much moore i can take. i...

well, another week is apon me. i hate weekdays. i realy hate my life right now. im out of gas in the car, have very few cigs, used my last foodstamps today, dont know how much moore i can take. i...

well. its been three and a half months now since i lost my job. i would like to say that ive been looking but i havnt. after the 4 apps i put in and all the rejection, im just realy scared now....