gimmestrength2008

Well, i got out of going out again. With no car and feeling like i am, ikt's so hard to get me to go out, trying to think of a way not to go out tomorrow already. It's my anxiety and my deppresion....

OK they were supposed to come in and do there every other month extermanate which i'm so glad they do that. I waited till the last min to straiten out this pig stye and they never showed. trying to...

OK this is hard to write as i didn't really want to do it but i said well maybe this will help . I don't care about anything again. Apt is a shambles as usual, my feet are killing me. Got some of my...

Well here i go making  a journal, i said i would do it every day but that's not happening. Made it out today with the help of my loving careing social worker, had to go to phyciatrist, i go once a...

Well i had a very stressfull day yesterday and last night. Had to get my car into b.f's garage yesterday, my wonderfull sis helped out with that then i had to go home and wait for my boy's to come...

OK i said i was going to journal everyday. Went out with b.f. today. It was very hard getting ready, must have smoked threw fourth of a pac of cigs, chain smoker i am lately. Anyway it all went well...

OK i said i was going to write another journal and here i go. I slept most of the day of course. Iv'e gained so much weight i want to cry, just got a pizza, like that's going to help. I think i'm...

Well, ere i go, trying to do a journal. So thing's are the same Apt is a mess of course, i'm a mess, havn't been writhin because ive just been to deppresed or axnaous. b.f. has my car as his is in...

ok well i  really don't have alot to type anm having trouble typeing but i'm still here and that is all i guess, this crapy weather so cold, burr. Well i'm going, will try to  write later on today,...

Well hello journal, it'sbeen a while sence i was able to write a journal, so here i go. Didn't do anything for new years, my meds were so messed up that i couldn't even type. We are getting a snow...

OK so another day in this month. Things are weird with me. I am having trouble just making this entry. as i type this my mind is wondering alot about so many thing's. My son mostly i guess and...

Just a small entry to say Merry Christmas to all of you Hope you all have a great day. Love you all Going to my families house and i am very anxoius There will be many people there and my youngest...

Hello and merry Christmas to all my friends. still trying to get in the spirit. This yr just zoomed by so fast, Like the Rolling stones said, What a drag getting ooold. I'm trying to be optomistic...

Well here i go. i know that i was going to try and only post positive thing's but i'm sick today. Ive gained almost 15 lb's since my son was in town and last night i ate fried chic and a whole bag, a...

Well, here i am again. Took my eve med's already so i have to make this short. Did nothin today again, ho well, OK i am thankfull for my computer and netflix and all the entertainment i get out of...