son finnaly back in school 1.22.11

well, im back on finnally. son is at colledge. couldnt be soon enough. its been a long time sence on here. dont know how much time ill have on here. jammin to some guns and roses right now. i can only jam my old fashion music when im alone. its a snowy day here. supposed to snow again on sat, sun , mon, etc. realy geting tired of all the snow. thank god i went to store yesterday. son got ride today. his colledge even canceled yesterday. counseler called today, have to make an appt w/ her. its so hard cause opr all the weather. got some KAVA KAVA  from the herb store. tryingnow to take so many xanexes.oh realy good song on.son got me some videos. am watching the whole lost thing now. my bro is putting together a 50th bday party for me. im exited but also very kinda nervouis. i dont get out much and i hope i remember dhow to act.started taking the advair again. having trouble breathing.very nervouis and depressed lately. gained some moore weight, of course.went to b.f.s house for 2 days last week. we didnt hardly fight at all. it was our new years eve. and it was good.house is a holy terrer mess again. i cant find my hairbrush, whats up w/ that. oh i finnally did some laundry. about time. im very tired again. i feel funny sometimes. hope im not in stroke mode.i guess ill be in this house till the weather breaks.its still bad w/ son. he drinks way too much. it makes me sad. he has so much potential. he is just like me at his age. i just wish he would find his way and be happy.glad to see american idol is on and it doesnt suck as bad as i thought. ok, thats it for me . maybe moore later...........