gimmestrength2008

juat droped mk off at work. couldnt wait to get on here. this is where i want to be. i feel safe here. i am so gratefull for my real family. son going to pay cable bill, sisters husband paying phone...

well, another week went by. here i am again. i cant wait till mk goes to work so i can get on here. j is avoiding me. he knows i need money. i know its hard wene your mother has to beg from you. i...

well, here i am another friday night in my exiting life. no nap for me today. dn is very worried about his mom. was supposed to go out there but now not so much. mk got paid, so have to stretch 65.00...

well here i am again, thursday night might as well be monday. i had a pretty good day today for once. me and my cousin sang and he played the guitar. he knows lots of beatles songs, watched accross...

well, they let me down again. dont know why i keeep falling for the same thing. dn not coming tonight, guess he doesnt want his moms presios car to get rained on. must be nice to have that option....

well, im giong over everything that happened today in my head. i think i just realized that i so this every night. cant beleive that i just realy figured that all into this. i nallways knew that that...

well, here i am agian. its saturday night and i am in a terrible mood today. think im trying to start my monthly, which is realy wenever now. my nerves are so bad that i cant start. now im so bloted...

i would like to work on my self asteem. right now its at its all time low. i know im a good person and most people like me wene i do make it out. dont have any friends, just my family. i dont trust...

well, this was another waisted day. i slept most of the day away. my days and nights are so messed up. i did leave the house once today. my deppression is realy kikin in now. my apt is a dissaster. i...

well, wene i first got fired, from no fault of my own, i thought i would get a job realy fast. i have lots of experiance and am allways a good loyal worker. i am just terrified. that is whats holding...

ok, took boyfreind to get his car fixed so he took mine for the night. dont like driveing anyway. so, i guess it was an ok day, i am so scared to go job hunting, im 47 yrs old , overweight, no...

ok, another sucky day is apon me. went whith boyfreind to take his car to the shop and to get my dentures ajested. it has been a very long week. finnally talked to my doctor. she is calling pharmacy...

ok, here i go again, just took my son to work so i can write in journal. this has to have been one of the longest weeks of my life. it happend again today. tried to take a nap after getting up at...

well, its been a week today sence i lost my job. i am realy freeking out. never dreamed id be job hunting at 47 years old. i filled out my first app yesterday. i was so nervouis that i messed it up....

well, here i am again, another crappy day in my world. went and filled out my first application since i got fired. it was so hard. havnt filled one of these out in over 15 years and you can tell. i...