gimmestrength2008

well i vsn not seem to get a journal wrotwe here. ive typed and typed, and typed. and then bam it went way it just went away. ive seen some strange things  and ive seen   them. but i dont know...

well i had lots of anxiaty today had to go to my primary doc and my phycatrist. made it . took forever at reg docs office and didnt get everything done  supoposed to be getting a delivery tonight...

well here i am on computer, yay. boyfreinds left about an hour ago. its very cool out yay. nice weather i here. had windows open all day today and it felt great.still cant get myself under any of the...

ya know its weird that right now feeling anxiaty. boyfreind came out and he and bro in law in basememt talking. im finding it very hard to make small talk w/ anyone any moore. why should i be so...

well today so far has been a pretty good day. woke at 9 am and ate then took a pain pill  and waited half hour and then did all my exersises. they were hard. i think im stronger than i realy am...

yes im very frustraited. got the very heavy lift chair in here. felt so good fo about 2 hrs. but guess what im too tall for it. the kind of sergury i had i cant hang my foot  over anything. has to...

had ok night slept good got some new stuff on pod. got up about 9a.m, took all my meds and had egg beaters.  my cough is worse. took some fobitusin dm. hope it works. getting lift chair today...

so well am on sis computer lissaning to my cris dauhgtry on the computer while im writing or i should say tying to type, did some exersisies but i havnt but havent ben koing faithfully for a bout 4...

well i got up and ui feel pretty good right now i know the pain will come, but ok for now listening to some old styx music very helpfull. i beleive thats what got me threw the shit hle they have the...

well it sabout 10.30 p.m. we left ffor  er at about 10.45 went to urgent care we wwere there for about 3 .5 hrs just to have them tell us they couldnt help me. they say go to er. I FREAKED again. i...

well im bak from the hell hole they call a nursing home. it was the most horrible pkace ive ever been to. i saw things there i cant un see. was so blocked couldnt go for 3 weeks it was the worst...

well, i was doing pretty well, until this morning. i woke up so paniced, im just now hitiing me and im afraid.i have made myself so sick from worrying and not eating enough  so im sick. so im going...

well, its about 1.30 mhere now. got up super early. 2   moore days till surgury. yay. im so happy and a little scared.  startiong tp dp a little             work for myself. its so...

last time i was at docs he said my colestorol was down about half way. so thats greqat. still on tricor. not down enough but its better yay me.....

sunday  before the surgury  it si thursday.  am in pain taday alot. im very nervoise. i have to type with keybourd on my lap because of this stupid brace and wheel chairl i have so much respect...