mon sept 5. 2011 bbq today yay.

well today so far has been a pretty good day. woke at 9 am and ate then took a pain pill  and waited half hour and then did all my exersises. they were hard. i think im stronger than i realy am spent way too much time in chair lately because of the other problum. but TOUCHDOWN yay . no pushing involved what so ever. thought it was imposible. boyfriend comeing out for a bbq, kinda nervoius. dont know why so nervius. its just family. i just am weird now i think still in shoke. took all meds on time feel MUCH BETTER pysicaly, dont know mentally its so frustraiting. every little tiny thing i do is sooo much harder now and i get so mad and frustraited. did get a little clean. got my lotion from my place, so i feel good still havnt takeled the hair. oh well can do later. nervoius why took all medicinde,       the anxiaty is kiking in have to stop it right now sis is non stop talking that does sometimes get on my last nerve. what ya ganna do she is the only one who can tke care of me and i know it is ver hard on her .thats why i wanted to get on here and vent. everything is so hard now. trying to hang onto a little dignacy good luck. and not go co9mpletely cookoo for coc puffs. ok, moore later.....