ok, same night. 9.5.2011..boyfreind just left

well here i am on computer, yay. boyfreinds left about an hour ago. its very cool out yay. nice weather i here. had windows open all day today and it felt great.still cant get myself under any of the computer desk table things. sucks have to put keybourd on lap. so hard to type this way. everything is so diffecult i cant take it alot of the time trying not to be a bitch to boyfreind. hes pretty nice about everything allthough he should do that anyways. he doesnt see the day to day hell that i go threw. i  mean its not bad at all. if not for sis i would be homeless or traped on 3rd floor. i cant do that. its going to take a loat of work on my part. still even w/ the lift chair, the swelling WONT GO DOWN... top of my foot is beet red and all swollen its very pissing me the fuck off. i dont hve   blood clots or anything like that, but it just WONT GO DOWN AH H H H H !!!!! jjust wont i lsleep practicly on my head and have many pillows proping up foot, then soon as i get up, bamm. just as bad. i dont get it sergury was on 8. 11.2011. that is allmost a whole month ahhhhhhhh ok, better go now nurse here in morning early.... ok untill tommorow......