gimmestrength2008

well, its been a while sence ive been on here. ive been very depressed and down. now i just found out that my colesstorol is sky high.its realy no wonder the way i  sit around and eat like jaba the...

well, we went swimming today. yay i left my car windows open and it stormed bad. im sooo sick of rain. im soo ltired they were out of my ciggerettes again. sis was going to buy me some w/ credit but...

well, alert the media, i finnaly went to the ymca w/ my aunt and we swam. i am sore so i think i did a lot. washed my hair. FINNALLY. think i was aprocting a record. took me 45 mins to shower i dont...

here i am at my aunts house. we are supposed to go swimming today. but then they came and got her. so i am here by myself. i realy want to go swimming but i hope it realy happens. i wish i wouldnt...

well, had big fight w/ son again. he just makes me sooo mad. i am very proud that he is in colledge and doing so well, but the no job thing. he has been lying to me about how much he soesnt have. im...

well, i finnally went to pool w/ my aunt. im so fat, my suit doesnt even fit anymoore. i feel tired but good. its going to take a long time to loose this weight. i am so shy and backwards, dont want...

well, im back home. son went out with his freind. so i can get on here for a short time. moniter is flikkering. dont know what that means, but its kinda scarry. ya he went out. going to b.f.s...

well, no swimming today. went to aunts house and to grannys house and picked out some stuff. its just too hot over there. im soo hot, i cant even stand it. i wnat to go home so bad. at aunts house...

well, son got some new internet so i am back. we have been having a time here. things are going better w/ son a little. ive had to do alot of yelling and checking him wenever he gets out of line. i...

i am at aunts house. our internet went off last week, supposed to be back on on wed, ya right. anyways, went to clayton today w/ joanna and don. its sooo hot here. we are having a heat waive thats...

well, thats it sonny  passed away at about 1.30 p.m. today. at least he isint in pain anymoore. went to see landlord today w/ son. of course he was dressed like a bum. i cant beleive the things he...

well, i should have never came ove. everyone is so tense and sleep deprived they are fighting realy bad. uncle could linger for many days. i dont know how much moore of this cn be taken. im so sorry...

well, ive allready had to get on him many times. its going to be a struggle. i dont know what to do. i know i have to stick to my guns. he is fighting me every step of the way. i have to treat...

well, it was nice while it lsted. son comming home sometime today. dont know when of course. god forbid id get a heads up. i think he is nervious also. he knows he has done wrong by me, he has to as...

well, im up so i thought id write a little now. the service will prob go off tommorow. kinda realy nervoius about tommorow. j didnt call me like he said he would, oh well. its b,s bday today. hope...