its been a while

well, its been a while sence ive been on here. ive been very depressed and down. now i just found out that my colesstorol is sky high.its realy no wonder the way i  sit around and eat like jaba the hut. im realy scarednow that im going to have a heart atack. i dont want to die.my colestoral is 267 sand the triglisorites are 476, supposed to be under 100. i know, boy ive realy hurt myself this time. im on some meds caled tricore. just started it 2 days ago. am hoping someone on this site maybe knows about it. i have to change my whole life. im so afraid. went out yesterday and i thnk i gave myself a panic attack, thought i was going to have heart attack. so we are back to that, except now i could realy hae one. im so afraid.ok here i go. dear god, please take care of my boys so they are safe, and please give me the strenght to make the changes before i have a heart attack or strode, cause you know my sons need me. dont think anyone else would have them. mthey realy need me. plus i dont want to die. thank you. in jesus name, amen. i will try to change. its going to be