gimmestrength2008

not much today. stretched out this morning. neck is still sore. did some strecting in the bed. but no real exsersise. going w/ sis to b.f, to my place to see son and maybe to store if she will go. i...

 well, of course i woke up at 8 a/m/. wish i could sleep longer in morning. even w/ the sleeping pills i get maybe 5 hrs, bummer. b.f. came out again today. we ent to dierburgs and target. i was...

 well, its christmas day, i saw my oldest son last night FINNALLY, he is very deppressed, poor kid, guy i should say. he and the wife have been fighting and he is realy in pain. he is SO BIG bigger...

 wel  one good thing about today, is im going to see my oldest son FINNALLY. he is coming here tonight after work. went to aunts house today. got good shower AND WASHED HAIR FINNALLY. YAY went to...

 well it was  a good day for making cookies. we did alot. i rolled and cut them and the whole nine. i still of course havnt heard frm oldest son. he is realy hurting my feelings. i wish he would...

 well, b.f. came and got me today and took me to the m.d. it is the second time ive seen him. he is pretty cool. i think i like him not as much as old doc but nothing i can do about it. he called in...

 well, i have to go to doc tommorow, b.f. going to take me yay. i have no money to buy any presents. i wish i knew if he was going to do what he ussually does. i cant even pay my esectic now. its...

well, i tried to write a journal this morning and it went away again, of course it was after i wrote alot and for a long time. that i s wene it ussually happens. trying to look at screen instead of...

 ya i dont know how i feel today. got up super early figures, then got up and watched tv for a while, then went back to sleep. did do some hard exsersises in bed. tried to do as many crunches as...

oh my. im very nervoius and still very mad and sad. how can he make me feel so bad. im so sorry that ive been taking it for so long. i must be a glutin for punishment, know im my own worst enamy, but...

 ya thats what i should have been like yelling. instead i just sit there and get mad and do nothing like ussuall. i wont do it again tonight. no way. it just dills me that he talks to me like that....

well we hav eate the turkey, went outside and saw weird lights in the sky? and we arnt even drinking./ got up at 8 a.m. my youngest came out w/ b.f. and my bro and aunt and us. we had a great meal....

well i feel like shit again today. have to go w/ sis to aunts house later and help her shop for thanks giving. im sooo cold. think when i lost the weight, im not so hot anymoore, which is good, now...

well im in alot of pain again today. dident go downstairs yet, scared. tried realy hard to work the pain out. not working. of course i dont have any pain pills just rx naproxen and tylenol. im very...

 well, my youngest and boyfreind came out today. we had a good time son did his laundry yay. they had dinner. i cooked for everyone. well i microwaved, the chicken was allready cooked. but it was...