son home today.

well, it was nice while it lsted. son comming home sometime today. dont know when of course. god forbid id get a heads up. i think he is nervious also. he knows he has done wrong by me, he has to as much as i bitch about it. not going to say too much till i get all my money he owes. then i can put the hammer down. just hope i can keep it down. i have to. this is a pivatle point in my life. this is going to be one of the biggest tests of my strenght. i hope i can do this by myself. if not it could get realy ugly. oh its going to be ugly. i need to get used to ugly. ok, uncle still hanging in there. need to ahower and wash my hair. will try to get back on this agfternoon b4 he gets here. going to go straiten up house for when he does get here so he knows what clean is. well, the illusion of clean anyway. ok, by for now. so nervious...