gimmestrength2008

well. its saturday evening, son comes home tommorow. his bus leaves around 1 p.m. im getting nervouis and deppressed in advance. uncle is not doing good at all. didnt leave house at all today. want...

well, its saturday. son comes home tommorow. got up early so i can enjoy my last day by myself. i hope i realy dont have to go anywere. want to call and check on aunt, and i dont. i figure they will...

well, i feel so alone right now. cant get my oldest son to answer my calls or call me back. uncle could die any day. its sooo sad over there. i took her to do some things today. im sunburnt and very...

ya know, my uncle is dying and im still at aunts house. her and her doughter are crying i cant cry. people think i have no feelings, but i do, i just can not cry. i have no moore tears in my head. i...

well, ia am at my aunts house. her husband is dying. had to go to thrift store to gert him a siut jacket. its sooo hot out and my hot flashes are worse than ever. ate all kinds of candy and cookies...

well, its thursday. i only have two moore days till son comes home. im so scared about it. im going to have to be so strong. i dont knwo what to do. going to make ANOTHER contract for him, but i HAVE...

well, just got back from boyfreinds house. it was soo hot out here. im sooo glad to be back home. we allways end up fightning. i cant do anything right wene im out there. i feel like a second class...

well, im up and its only 8 a.m. i dont know why i dont go back to sleep. im having some cofee in my very clean apartment. i relay like it when its clean. going to reay try this time. i will have to...

well, they did the inspection, i passed. at leaste thats over. place is pretty clean and i did it allmyself. i feel very good about that. im going to try to deep it clean. trying to figure what im...

well, here i am again. slept a little. have sore throught, figures. its realy storming here. sis is taking a nap here. need to go out and get something to eat. its realy going to start pouring here...

well, been trying to get on here for hours. finnally got the connection going again. sont know how, but i did. up early. trying to clean. sonny doing worse. uncle now for shure has lung cancer. im...

went to aunts last night to check on her. sonny is dying, its so sad. there is so much sickness and death in our family. its just so sad. so glad i can get on here and it realy helps. in prosses of...

well, got up pretty early today. cleaned a little. went out today harray for me. went to bank for my aunt, got gas for car and went to wallmart and shop n save. thats alo9t for me. havnt ate yet,...

well, b.f. cancelled again for today. so im in the house again. trying to get on twitter. i love craig ferguson. cant find him. evedentaly im now following russell brand. i like him but i dont think...

well, went to f.s. office w/ social worker. it was horrible. im so tired and sad today. my place smells so bad. i wish i could get all the stale air out. its mostly ciggerette smell. i only notice it...