im back baby

well, son got some new internet so i am back. we have been having a time here. things are going better w/ son a little. ive had to do alot of yelling and checking him wenever he gets out of line. i think its starting to stick. he cooked last night and acually cleaned after himself. it sounds like a little thing, but its big. wish i would have made him do these tings earlerer in life, but i didnt, so this is what i have. im starting to maybe see a light at the end of the tunnell. have been in house for a few days now. its too hot outside for me. going to try to go to ymca tommorow and start swimming. trying to get aunt and sis to go w/ me. im so shy and backwards now. hate to go by myself. b.f. came over for a while. going to a poker game this weekend at cuz hjouse. we all need some laughs. there is so much sickness and death, its just so sad. im sooo depressed and feel so bad about the way i look, im killing myself w/ the weight. ok, i will try to get back on later, if not, tommorow when he goes to school, untill then