gimmestrength2008

i would like to work on my self asteem. right now its at its all time low. i know im a good person and most people like me wene i do make it out. dont have any friends, just my family. i dont trust...

well, this was another waisted day. i slept most of the day away. my days and nights are so messed up. i did leave the house once today. my deppression is realy kikin in now. my apt is a dissaster. i...

well, wene i first got fired, from no fault of my own, i thought i would get a job realy fast. i have lots of experiance and am allways a good loyal worker. i am just terrified. that is whats holding...

ok, took boyfreind to get his car fixed so he took mine for the night. dont like driveing anyway. so, i guess it was an ok day, i am so scared to go job hunting, im 47 yrs old , overweight, no...

ok, another sucky day is apon me. went whith boyfreind to take his car to the shop and to get my dentures ajested. it has been a very long week. finnally talked to my doctor. she is calling pharmacy...

ok, here i go again, just took my son to work so i can write in journal. this has to have been one of the longest weeks of my life. it happend again today. tried to take a nap after getting up at...

well, its been a week today sence i lost my job. i am realy freeking out. never dreamed id be job hunting at 47 years old. i filled out my first app yesterday. i was so nervouis that i messed it up....

well, here i am again, another crappy day in my world. went and filled out my first application since i got fired. it was so hard. havnt filled one of these out in over 15 years and you can tell. i...

ok i finnaly got back on here after about 5 months. since then things have gotten alot worse for me. i used to go by dogslinger 2008. i had some good freinds on here and it realy seemed to nhelp me....

well, i did go to my apt w/ my sis. its dirty but not too bad considering, so of course i got into it w/ son and bitched alot. i dont knwo what he is going to do. or me. icm coming home next week....

OMG!!!!!!!!!! when did they decide to take off one life to live? AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! W.T.F.this is so wrong. i just found out today. waaat? they are sto stupid, its not even funny. ok, thats my rant....

well, i am still swollen, took the heavy water pill and the potasiom again, have been on them long enough were this prob should be better, they are not much better. still have probs w/ bowels of...

well, i am going out tonight w/ sis to see son if i can w/ out wanting to punch him in the face. not realy. i dont know what he is thinking. havnt even told b.f. about. dont knwo when or how, still i...

well, im still not allowing my brain to wrap around the prob w/ son. im still so very angry. im so fucked and so is he. so angry. tried to call landlord today but he didnt call back. my rent is late...

 ya see i can wallk again, so its deffinatly a VERY GREAT NEW YEAR,  writing this one ny day actually. its about 3 p.m nyeve we just sat and drank very little then i got very tired of course made...