very mad today

well, had big fight w/ son again. he just makes me sooo mad. i am very proud that he is in colledge and doing so well, but the no job thing. he has been lying to me about how much he soesnt have. im so mad i cant see strait. oh well, if he cant live here, he cant. im still lhoping he will straiten out. i know its very hard to find work but come on.i wanted to get on here instead of just going back to sleep. got me some fried chicken, so bad, i need comfort food. was souer today from swimming. want to go back tommorow w/ my aunt. i should have went today but i slept. trying to work threw the anger. cant think strait anymoore. its agsausting being me. ok, another day waisted. i want to be well so bad. i see people out there and they seem happy and maybe not medicated so much. i feel like im under water alot. oh well, maybe moore later but son home soon so will get on tommorow night. maybe not so mad.