gimmestrength2008

well, as i thought, the car didnt start. now i have no job no money and my car is broke. thats about right. i dont know why i cant just get a break allready. realy starting to get even moore...

well, i ate and took meds, starting to kick in so wont be on long. getting pretty tired, if cant sleep, will get back on. talked to dn on phone. seems to be doing better. got nothing done today,...

well, im out of bed after i got off here, i tokk 1 nd a half xanex. thought i would be able to take a nap, not happening. i used to be able to nap all the time, before all this losing myu job...

well, i made it, barely. i stayed there for 2 days and nights, longest time ever. didnt think i was going to make it. everything is so hard out there. i just hate it. tried to talk to mommy dearest...

well, three times in one day i wrote in here. thats pretty good. i did one half hour of just stretchinhg. i do feel a little better. im going to hurt tommorow, but oh well, thats tommorow, at least i...

well, im better now. took half a xanex, now i can type and concentraite. i so whish i didnt have to be so addicted to these but i am and im a little old to try to quit anything. it works for me so...

well, here i am. the day started out to be decent, but oh no we cant have that. was at the store, got my food so i can feed my face and get even fatter, then i go out and the stupid car wont start....

juat droped mk off at work. couldnt wait to get on here. this is where i want to be. i feel safe here. i am so gratefull for my real family. son going to pay cable bill, sisters husband paying phone...

juat droped mk off at work. couldnt wait to get on here. this is where i want to be. i feel safe here. i am so gratefull for my real family. son going to pay cable bill, sisters husband paying phone...

well, another week went by. here i am again. i cant wait till mk goes to work so i can get on here. j is avoiding me. he knows i need money. i know its hard wene your mother has to beg from you. i...

well, here i am another friday night in my exiting life. no nap for me today. dn is very worried about his mom. was supposed to go out there but now not so much. mk got paid, so have to stretch 65.00...

well here i am again, thursday night might as well be monday. i had a pretty good day today for once. me and my cousin sang and he played the guitar. he knows lots of beatles songs, watched accross...

well, they let me down again. dont know why i keeep falling for the same thing. dn not coming tonight, guess he doesnt want his moms presios car to get rained on. must be nice to have that option....

well, im giong over everything that happened today in my head. i think i just realized that i so this every night. cant beleive that i just realy figured that all into this. i nallways knew that that...

well, here i am agian. its saturday night and i am in a terrible mood today. think im trying to start my monthly, which is realy wenever now. my nerves are so bad that i cant start. now im so bloted...