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Still feeling kinda low this morning. I walked with my good friend Toni last night and had a good talk with her. This morning was the first morning in a while I had a bad crying spell before I left...

I feel terrible. I feel like if I type what I feel I might break down. I was just checking my space page and looked at Josh's do see what friends had posted new messages. Well, then I go over to...

Just OK today. I miss Josh so much and the hole in my heart is unbearable. But, I have come to realize that my baby is with me always. I down loaded a copy of his decals we had made for all of his...

I actually change my smiley face to good. I feel pretty good this morning. I know it is still early. I went and visited Josh yesterday afternoon and a feeling of peace came over me. I know I can...

I made it through the weekend. Friday we had Josh's stone put down. It is beautiful. It has his picture etched in color and his peace symbol sand blasted on. He would be proud. I have thought...

Well today is the day. It is 8:10am here in North Carolina. John and I are cleaning up the house. We are expecting company with Josh's stone being put down today. Yes, keep us in your prayers. ...

Four months today John and I lost our Josh. Our world was turned upside down and has not sat back up since. I love Josh with all of my heart and I miss him deeply. I hate that I did not tell him...

Well it is 4:24 on Monday afternoon here in North Carolina. Today has been OK. The weekend sucked. I do not like being at home anymore. I try to stay on the road has much as possible. Saturday...

I think I am actually doing OK today. But, I still miss Josh so much. I think about him every minute and second of the day. Nothing I do is the same anymore. Last night I went to my nephew's tee...

I need some advice. Josh's stone is almost ready. They want to put it down on the 24th (Tuesday). Josh's 4 month anniversary. I just don't think I can have it put down the same day Josh went to...

I am sending prayers out to all the families that lost love ones today in the shooting at Virginia Tech. What sense did this make? What is this world coming to?

I miss Josh so much. There is no words to describe how I feel. The emptiness and loneliness is unbearable. I hate sitting here at work. I too feel like I have not had time to grief. I cam back...

Today I feel OK but sad at the same time. Does that make sense? I think I feel OK is because of this: Before I woke up this morning I had a dream that seem so real. I saw my Josh. I had to go to...

Well, I am supposed to be working. But, all I want to do is think and talk about my Josh. This morning on the way to work I was thinking back when we had to go to the hospital for someone to idenify...

Still feeling bad today. I feel like someone has just tore my heart out of my body. For some reason that last couple of days have been really bad ones for me. People ask what is wrong with you. I...