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I want Josh back. I know there is no way of getting him back. I missed him so much over the Easter holiday. Why God? If I just knew why and what he was thinking and how he felt at that time of...

I got back from lunch and I am angry. I looked all around me and saw how beautiful everything is that is blooming. I could actually see God's work. Then I thought about my Josh. How cruel God...

Today is Tuesday and I made it to work. My plans are to make it all day. My heart and soul still ache so bad I can hardly stand it. I miss Josh so much. How can life be so cruel? How can my life...

Today is a bad one. I got up OK but then the tears hit me like a ton of bricks. It almost made me sick. I made it to work but I had to leave. I just felt like I needed to be close to Josh today. ...

Well this is week is about over with. I get so sleepy in the afternoon. I think it is because it takes every bit of my energy to get up out of the bed and go to work. I had contact with some of...

How do I get through another day without Josh? I miss him so much. Saturday was his 3 months. I wanted to take him new spring flowers out to the grave, but I had to spend the day with my brother...

Well I thought yesterday was going to make day number two without crying. I was fine until I got home. No Josh. John hadn't got home yet. I hate going home by myself. I got angry screaming Why? Why...

Well, I had to celebrate my 40th birthday Saturday without Josh. I got up Saturday went into his room and burned an insense for him and cried for about an hour and a half. I just kept thinking I...

Still feeling horrible. I miss Josh so much. Words cannot express how much. I hate going home after work, I don't want to cook anymore, I just don't want to do anything. The only thing I want to...

I have cried alot the last couple of days. Yesterday was bad. I just don't understand why God took Josh. I know it's not meant for me to understand, but I would have traded my live for his any day....

I picked up Josh's class ring this morning and had a good cry afterwards. It is not fair that he could not be here to get it himself. John and I have been deciding what to do with it. Guess what? ...

Today I feel OK, but I need to vent about something and I don't know how to handle this. My Josh has only been dead two months and the girlfriend has moved on. I know she is only 14 1/2 and is...

Two months ago today I lost my only child. My family and I just went to the scene and put a cross with his name on it down for him and some flowers. Some of his friends had already put flowers down...

Well John and I made it through Valentine's Day. It was tough. But, it's like I told him we have many more holidays to come that we will not have our Josh. Last night we went to the funeral home...

I don't know why but Monday's seem to be not so good. But, I have made my mind up to go and talk to someone today to see if it will help. John and I had dinner with Josh's girlfriend Friday night. ...