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Finally today I think I feel OK.  Yesterday was a different story.  I got up and had a little crying spell.  I got control of myself.  All day at work it was like I was putting on an act to just...

Not feeling to good this morning.   This morning I got up and had a crying spell.  I blame myself so badly for what happened to Josh.  I kept telling myself it was not my fault.  But, I pushed...

It is 11:54 am here in North Carolina.  It's just me at the office.  Everyone has gone to lunch.  I thought I would write abit.  But, once I log on I don't know what to say.  I am so worried and...

Good morning to everyone.  What is so good about it right?  I am thinking about it and will let you know.  Today I am going to pick out the shirt of Josh's that I want stuffed.  Well, my mother...

Well here it is Friday 4:20.  Just waiting for 5:00.  I seemed to be doing a little better today.  I had a complete break down yesterday morning before I came to work.  I had to take a Xanax.  I...

Will I ever put on a happy face again?  I doubt it.  Life sucks with Josh and that is all there is to it.  I went to the beach and tried to have a good time this weekend, but got sick and had to...

Well today is Friday, finally.  I want to thank all of you for your support during the last couple of weeks.  Today I am actually feeling OK.  Yesterday was Josh's 5th month anniversary.  John...

Dear Josh, Today is five months since I have seen you smile, hear your voice, argue with you, and hearing you whisper sweet nothings to Logan.  Josh, it hurts so bad and mama is having a very hard...

I have had a terrible week this week. I have cried everyday. I have not done that in a while. I am sitting here at work now and feel like just crying my eyeballs out. I am so sick and tried of...

Sorry, I haven't written since the weekend. I have been real busy. Trying to keep my mind functioning. Mother's Day really sucked. I got up that morning and I had a sign from Josh. I was sitting...

Josh, Honey in your memory this morning I am burning a incense and candle. Josh, Jordie (your bestfriend) sent me a mothers day present yesterday and I would like to share it with you and my sisters...

Josh, Honey in your memory this morning I am burning a incense and candle. Josh, Jordie (your bestfriend) sent me a mothers day present yesterday and I would like to share it with you and my sisters...

Well the mother's day weekend has started out the way I thought it would. It is 7:15am am I am a wreck. I have already been in Josh's room had the worst cry I have had in a while. I am burning...

Well finally it is Friday!!! I am ok this morning because I have found a Compassionate Friends Group about 30 minutes from my home. I will be attending my first meeting on Monday night. I am happy...

I seem to be doing OK today. But the more I hear about Mother's Day and watching commericals about Mother's Day the more empty I feel knowing my Josh will not be here. I just got back from the...