I actually change my smiley face to good. I feel pretty good this morning. I know it is still early. I went and visited Josh yesterday afternoon and a feeling of peace came over me. I know I can talk to him anytime, anywhere. But, going out there now and looking down at his beautiful face looking at me brings me such comfort out there. I know that sounds crazy. But let me tell you something else that has been happening. Each time my friend and I go out there and walk there is a train that goes by with graffiti all over it. It happened yesterday when I was by myself. Josh loved graffiti. Maybe this is another way of him telling me he is OK. John and actually been good the last couple of days. Maybe I am on a road to seeing a little bit of sanity. I love you my Joshie Pooh. Mama