I miss Josh so much. There is no words to describe how I feel. The emptiness and loneliness is unbearable. I hate sitting here at work. I too feel like I have not had time to grief. I cam back to work two week after Josh passed. Was that too soon? I need time to figure out what I am going to do with myself now that he is gone. John doesn't talk. I think he doesn't want to talk about Josh because he can stand the pain that he is holding inside. This weekend he was very ill toward me. He just will not talk to me. If losing Josh is not bad enough I feel like my 20 years of marriage is going down the hills. I love you my Joshie Pooh.
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You need a break.Take a few days off.Go somewhere.What abt family?You need to talk about your son.Take care.
men grieve in different ways than we do. most of them dont want to talk about it cause it does stir up the pain for them. Give your marriage some time and dont make any big decisions yet. talk to other people and friends if you cant talk to your husband. I took more time off work and know someone else who tried to go back and couldnt do it. so If you feel like you need more time than take it. temporary disabiliy is available to that is what I used for the three months I took off. I came back to work but only two days a week. do you have anyone you can call or go visit to talk? men are strange when it comes to grieving like I said before i almost split with mine too, but decided to give it another chance and things have been a lot better. try to do some projects together around the house or something together that takes your mind off things for a little while. we built a rock wall planter together and it did bring us closer together. You guys kept it together for 20 years that means alot. You are just going to have to get your support elsewhere when it comes to grieving and just reassure your husband that you are grieving normally and it is a process different for all. I had my boyfriend say to me \"everyone else is getting on with their lives\" that was a hard blow and made me want to leave him right then and their. they just dont understand sometimes. and our pain makes them think about their own. ok sweetie take care
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alissa