Well it is 4:24 on Monday afternoon here in North Carolina. Today has been OK. The weekend sucked. I do not like being at home anymore. I try to stay on the road has much as possible. Saturday morning I went yard saleing with some family. That afternoon we had company for dinner. Saturday was OK. Sunday is the worst. I was home about all day. I had to run out to the grocery store and went by to visit with Josh. John has not been in a couple of days. John has always been a smooth going person. Not ever getting angry or showing his feelings. Right lately at home I think he wants to take his anger out on me about Josh. Everytime I say something or the least little thing go wrong I get a mouth full from him. I am not use to that from him. It upsets me that much more. I just don't know what to do when it comes to John. He doesn't talk about Josh. Tomorrow will be 4 months since Josh's accident. Friday the stone is being put down. This week will suck. I just miss Josh so much and there is nothing that fill that spot. One more thing I finally have all the signatures for adopting his road. Instead of the road being named "IN MEMORY OF JOSHUA MCINTOSH" I have decided on the following for my peace loving 16 year old. "SAVING THE EARTH FOR JOSHUA MCINTOSH". I love you, Josh. I don't feel like anyday is getting any better. Love Ya, Mama